Here is the link I referenced in the earlier post.
It has definitely been a while since I’ve gotten on here… I’ve kind of neglected this blog for a while. In the past 2 weeks, I’ve been made aware of three families that have lost their babies. One family through our church, one close friend of our family, and a “friend of a friend” have all told me their story of the tragic losses. My heart aches for them, and having to go through the holidays will certainly be trying.
I really don’t have anything profound to say. It’s an awful reality and they have a long road ahead of them. Nevertheless, God is still good. Please don’t let that sound trite to you. I’m attaching a link to our church service this past week. If you listen, you’ll understand my “Nevertheless” reference.
It’s on this side of the struggle that I can be reminded of God’s faithfulness. It’s easy to get past the hurt and move on, especially as time does heal some of the ache. As I hear these stories, it does bring me back to some hard memories of when we lost Savannah, but more importantly, it fills me with a sense of awe & gratitude at how much my God has blessed me throughout my life & how faithful He is.
It’s titled, “Tis the Season, Part 2″
Faces of Loss October 1, 2011
Savannah’s Story was featured on the “Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope” website. It is a great resource for others who’ve gone through miscarriage, or infant loss. You can check it out by clicking here: facesofloss.com
It’s Here!!! September 15, 2011
Today was the day! So excited to get our boxes of “Savannah’s Song” in the mail this afternoon! Can’t believe it’s been 15 years since it’s been written… mixed emotions for sure… a little sad, but mostly in awe to see how we’ve been blessed over the years. I’m hoping that it can bring comfort to those who have suffered similar loss, and as a mom, I love the idea of people knowing her name. :)
Click Here to Purchase Savannah’s Song at ChrisFilerMusic.com
Click Here to Purchase Savannah’s Song on itunes
I finally got my love song… August 31, 2011
Chris & I have been married for 18 1/2 years and it finally happened. I got my love song. Let me just say it was worth the wait. We are in Nashville right now. We secretly flew in to surprise our good friend for his 50th birthday. We pulled off the big surprise last night and had a great evening with friends.
Our first day in town, Chris had a co-write with Sue Smith. We went out for dinner when he was through, and he was very limited in his answers about the song they wrote. He always tells me about the process, and all of the specifics… so when he avoided my questions, I pretty much knew something was up.
That same evening, about 4 hrs later , we were getting settled in for the night. Out of the blue, he grabs his guitar… ”I can’t take it anymore…I was going to surprise you with this on the cd, but I’ve got to let you hear it.” So he sings me “my” song. He wanted to get it on the cd without me knowing… but since I’m the one that deals with artwork and correspondence in getting details finished up, he realized that probably wasn’t going to happen.
It’s called, “You’re Kind of a Big Deal To Me.” Anyone that knows me and the struggles I’ve had the last couple of years will grin when they hear it. ”I’m Kind of a Big Deal” has been my catch phrase as I’ve reluctantly and some days very immaturely taken the “back-seat, servant, this-really-doesn’t-feel-very-good-in-your -shadow,” role as Chris has stepped into the forefront with his music. My niece even found me a little plaque with the cute little saying on it – I’ve got it in my bathroom where I see it every day. :) Love you, Serethenee!
I’ve learned a lot these past few years and grown in ways that really don’t feel good. Through it all, I would say “daily surrender” is what I’m working on the most. I can give more specifics later… I’ll just close with saying that after 18+ years of marriage, Chris still makes my heart flutter and I think he’s an awesome partner and dad. (I will admit, I’m a bit more sentimental than normal, considering that he just wrote me this beautiful song…) I’m a blessed girl. :)
A full heart… August 18, 2011
It’s 6:19am Thursday morning, and I am busting at the seams… When we were first trying to get Savannah’s Song released, I was pushing to get it done by Savannah’s 15th birthday, July 2nd. I thought it simply had to happen – it would just be so incredibly cool, yes? The ladies in my family were heading to Chicago to celebrate my mom’s b-day that weekend, so I was in a rush. I was even willing to drop doing my background vocals on the song just to get it out ON her birthday.
When things happened, and it didn’t work out, I was a little bummed. Not a huge deal, but thought it would have just been a cool story… Anyway, time had passed, I got my vocals done, everything was mastered, etc… We got into the business of getting things ready for school, celebrating two August birthdays with the kiddos, and I put it aside.
I knew, as of yesterday, that the song was getting close to getting up on itunes. So I had checked periodically throughout the day. First thing I did today – not sure why – was to go to itunes to see if it was up yet. To my extreme crazy joy, it was! But wait – that’s not the cool part! I looked at the release date posted beside the song title, and it was August 17th, 2011 – Grace’s birthday. The daughter that has healed some of the ache of not having Savannah with us. Taken her place? Definitely not. Been a huge, amazing blessing? Absolutely! I had wanted so badly for the single to come out on Savannah’s birthday, but it came out on her sister’s birthday instead. This might not be a big deal to you, but that is the cool part! It meant a lot to me and it was like God was saying, “See, Kelly – my timing IS perfect. My grace IS sufficient.” It was then, and it is now! He cares enough to orchestrate the timing of producers, artwork, digital uploading, etc. just to remind me that he does do those things – just to show us how much he does love us.
Such an awesome reminder this morning… that’s all for now!
What a Day! August 17, 2011
Not only did Gracie turn 9 today… (Happy Birthday, Gracie!!!), but we got all three kiddos back to school today. It’s always a bittersweet day for me. I love, love, LOVE, having them home over the summer, but it’s about the last week of summer that we all get a little “testy” with each other. Everyone has super awesome teachers this year, which makes it much easier to “let them go…”
We also just found out that we are going to have another artist record a full-length project at our studio…Woo Hoo! We are really enjoying this new venture and love having people creating music here at the house. I love entertaining, so I for one, am looking forward to the excitement that having visitors creates in our home. Plus, I love having the kiddos around all of these amazingly creative people…
Finally, I just found out that “Savannah’s Song” should be on itunes very shortly! We’ve got everything turned in and are just waiting on them to get it put up for purchase… Yeah! I’m so excited to let people hear it – I can say that because I had nothing to do with it… I really love the new version. Thanks, Chris & Sue: your first co-writing “venture” was a huge success, in my book at least.
A pretty great day.